Here goes nothing

I love the feeling that I get when I am brand new to something. The complete newness and openness of the learning process. I wanted to document some things and see how far I go in my little 'self' project. So here goes nothing. 

I grew up a skinny kid. My parents took care of what I was allowed to eat. They fed me well with the occasional treat. Of course as time goes on, good genes aren't always so great. I got a desk job at 22 and it went down hill from there. Now here I am, many years later, trying to lose the weight. It isn't a lot but its enough for me to feel concerned at this point. My sleep is erratic, I am tired all the time and I obsess over food. Not in a healthy way. I eat too much and when I'm not eating, I am thinking of it. It is disgusting. I disgust myself. I don't feel attractive anymore, especially out of clothes. I want the old me back. I've also tried countless things to lose weight- Nutrisystem, Weight Watchers, Atkins, 3 day diet, etc. Nothing would let me lose more than a pound or 2. My body is stubborn. And tired. And still, the insomnia is relentless- I cannot handle it anymore. This body is trying to tell me something. 

Quite a few weeks ago, I started watching a documentary on intermittent fasting by Dr Michael Mosley. For the 1st time in a long time, something in me clicked. It made sense. My body is trying to tell me I need a break from food. Food has been making me ill, and fat. I started researching intermittent fasting religiously. I bought his book, The Fast Diet, which is incredibly rich with knowledge, studies and facts on fasting. I am about mid way through it. 

I embarked on my 5:2 diet this week. It is where you pick 2 days, non consecutive, to eat less than 500 calories and eat as normal the remaining 5 days . I knew I could do it because I hadn't been eating breakfast for about a month to cut back on calories and my appetite. I'm not hungry in the morning anyway. Week 1 weigh in went great! I lost 1.5 lbs which for me is awesome. I have an extremely hard time losing weight any way I try it. I have to say I have already been feeling more energetic. I can tell when I am truly hungry versus just wanting to shove my face. I drink a shit ton more water now (adding lemon or orange slices!).  And my appetite has been so much smaller! I am stuffed after about half of what I normally would eat. 

Anyway this is my first blog, after my 1st week of fasting and I am going to try to remember to do these updates weekly. I am looking forward to wearing a bathing suit for the 1st time, without a cover up, in a LONG time. And taking my daughter to the water park and seeing the happiness radiate off her sweet face. That girl loves being in water. I know this is a plan I can stick to because I am dedicated and when I get set on something, I am tenacious about it. And the results I am already seeing/feeling led me to believe my body was really trying to talk me into fasting to renew my cells.